Friday, July 2, 2010
Knight from URL @ 11:57 PM
so
its been a while.
-smiles to self-
wanted to
rant on some things that just
really got on my nerve
but i was doing pw and stuff
and kinda lost the mood
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what should i say.
there are more important things in life
there are priorities that must be taken care of
there are practical ones, and idealistic ones
we should always concentrate on the practical ones
because they determine the future
current happiness or depression is insignificant
because current is only this year
time heal all wounds
time erases memories and pain
the current and the future
the current may not last for long and the future is uncertain
but one thing is for sure, the future is worth much much more than the current
we get through the current to move into the future
harping on the past, comtemplating about the present will lead to no where
i'll forget about the past
i'll ignore the present
i'll avoid the future
i shall run away from this pain you are causing me
i shall turn away from whatever thoughts my brain gives me
i shall make myself devoid ( word that came up during gp test, devoid means lacking. i got my 1 mark :D ) of emotions
which is bloody fked up cause ive been wanting to remove all emotions from me since primary school,
BUT SOME FUCKING EMOTIONS ARE STILL STUCK WITHIN ME AND I CANT GET THEM OUT OF MY HEAD.
but at the very least.
i know what causes me pain
i know who causes me pain
and i know how to remove that pain altogether.
i got burnt, but i dont regret getting burnt.
but its only just this once
i wont get burnt again
i wont let myself get hurt again
im not strong
i wouldnt say im weak
but im not going to leave myself vulnerable anymore.
and so with this.
its over.
between you and me.
its over.
hell to november. i cant be bothered anymore.
i'm walking my own path and forging my own fate.
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